Alanna White
Her name was sweet in the mouth
And it rolled off the tongue
But no one can remember it now
With hair as dark as the night sky
And skin as pale as pure starlight
With eyes that shone like the sun
But seemed so lost in the world
She danced through the storm
That life throws our way
Cares she threw back with a laugh
She dreamed of something more
Of rustling skirts and blue parasols
Of peace beyond the heavens above
Lost so young in the midst of a dream
Alone
I spread my wings and fly away
I’m carried by dreams promised to fail
On dreams destined to never come true
But still I leave this place
Leave, and go far into the future
Riding on my fears
Flying into a sunset of pain
A sunset drenched a scarlet red
With the blood of the haunted
The unheard ones crying out for recognition
That one day someone might understand
And reach out to help with both hands
Trying to numb the heart
Banish the hurt forever
Bleeding it out of the veins
If those closest can’t see
Then who else ever will?
Why stay where you are not wanted?
To leave this place an inevitable fate
Sooner or later, who could care?
A welcome wanted fate
With one voice we cry
Hoping for something better
Never to see it come
I add my blood to the current
And I add my voice to the torrent
But I’m always alone
Anniversary
I’m tough enough
To stand alone
Stumbling on and on
You’d expect support
But in a comfortless world
Where you gonna look?
Don’t blame me for my pain
Don’t criticize my tears
I hate this bloody life
But I can’t stop my breath
Band-Aids
Maybe the pain would leave me be
If band-aids could mend my broken heart
And my dreams would again feel real to me
Maybe I could finally stop crying
If band-aids could mend my broken heart
And I could finally stop wishing that I were dying
Maybe I could stop pretending
If band-aids could mend my broken heart
Then I could live instead of wish my life was ending
Maybe it would stop my sighing
If band-aids could mend my broken heart
And to myself I could forever stop all my lying
I wish that so clearly I didn't see
That band-aids can't mend my broken heart
And my soul will never be free from this agony
Between the Lines
Does she see the light of day?
Does she see the dark of night?
Or is she locked inside
Without access to sight?
Does she cry before sleep?
Why can’t she forget her pride?
Wasn’t she a darling child?
Has she lost all hope inside?
What caused her to be so sad?
Was it just that she grew older?
Did she learn that life’s not a song?
Has she found no one to hold her?
When did she lose her joy in life?
How’d she get that shattered smile?
What happened to that child?
Does she have fun once in awhile?
How come know one else saw her tears?
How could we all have been so blind?
Do you recognize her anymore?
Do you see she’s trapped in her own mind?
Cat's Meow
Softly Blinding
White marked by
Could-care-less green eyes
Sun warms my
White whiskers
A queen on my plush
Throne
Content to sit and watch
Their life goes by
Doted on
Caressed as I deserve
Scratches under the chin
Treats laid out
Before me
Plaintive “meow”
Gets them every time
The spoils of my
Royalty
Always get the spot
On top;
My world
Caught
Forever falling with no end in sight
I bleed from hand and knee
Caught in the crossfire of blinding white
I’m trapped in the midst of this fight.
It feels so familiar to me.
Forever falling with no end in sight
Tell me, is this supposed to be right?
I stand tall refusing to flee.
Caught in the crossfire of blinding white
Don’t you think I’d attempt flight,
If it was even a possibility?
Forever falling with no end in sight
I can explain to you my plight.
No one has ever shown kindness to me.
Caught in the crossfire of blinding white.
I’m lost in the middle of the night.
And I wish that someday I could be free.
Forever falling with no end in sight
Caught in the crossfire of blinding white
Craving
I am afraid to be alone
Yet, I crave solitude
I am afraid to be different
Yet, I crave the obscure
I am afraid of the spotlight
Yet, I crave fame
I am afraid of change
Yet, I crave for things to be different
I am afraid of the pain
Yet, I crave the blood
Day into Night
Golden orb of daisy light
Bubbling brook of laughter
Fans of brightly colored ferns
Eyes wide, bright, and alive
Ribbons of warmth and color
Rise in a sky of feathered blue
Silver coin on ebony velvet
Trumpets fanfare the night
Black wings draped on brilliance
Lidded, dark, and sleeping
Winds of stardust brush past
Over waves’ measured breath
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All We
All we ever
Talk about
Is why I’m not
Good enough,
And why
I’m never gonna
Make it,
How I don’t
Even try,
And how
I couldn’t understand.
You tell me that
I’m different
Than I once used to be.
Well, guess what,
You did this to me.
So stop telling me
I’m rotten, and
Stop making me
Feel worthless.
‘Cause I’m more
Than you could
Hope for.
You should
Be thanking me
For my patience
And my love,
For my hope
And for my dreams
Of a future that could be.
All I ever
Think about
Is why I’m not
Good enough,
And why
I’m never gonna
Make it,
How you don’t
Even try,
And how
You couldn’t understand.
Away
Open your eyes, smell the coffee
Wake up to the roses blooming
Don’t turn your head away
Don’t turn your heart away
See the clouds meander past
Feel the grass beneath your feet
Don’t turn your head away
Don’t turn your heart away
Look out across the plains
See more than just a horizon
Don’t turn your head away
Don’t turn your heart away
Be strong enough to stand
Climb higher than the mountains
Don’t turn your head away
Don’t turn your heart away
Sit enclosed in four safe walls
Fall asleep with the light on
You’ve turned your head away
You’ve shut your heart away
Brink
Whirling around
Above the ground
Whistles in my ears
And I forget my fears
For but a moment
And then it’s spent
Grant me peace
I need that release
Life has become
That which is less than some
Give me a break
I’m wide-awake
Eyes close to breaking
Love, I’ve been forsaking
My heart can’t be taken
I’ve built myself a wall
I can’t afford the fall
I gotta build my own fort
My only protection and support
There’s respite in the wind
I can’t lie, I’ve sinned
Repent, repent they tell me so
I don’t want to do that though
I bleed from hand and knee
Who has ever shown kindness to me?
I am poised on the edge
I contemplate leaving the ledge
There’s no need to think
Long ago, behind me, I left that brink
BFFL
I said best friends for life
And you answered in kind
And it felt like the sun
Would shine forever on us
We blessed the day we met
And we walked through
Our early lives side by side
I swore we’d never grow apart
Despite what someone warned
We’d be best friends forever
And forever never ends
But the impossible happened
You turned your back
With never a backward glance
While slowly I did the same
And both of us walked away
Forever is just a fantasy
Just like life, forever ends too soon
Changing
The leaves fall,
The grass grows
The grass is cut
Leaves and clippings mixed
What you once knew is overgrown
New land to be learned
When you were younger,
The trees still shed,
And the grass was still attracted to the sky
Yet, year after year it always seemed the same
Nothing ever changed; it stood still in time,
But now it’s different,
Couldn’t stay unscarred forever
Nothing will ever be quite what it was
What are you supposed to do,
When everything you counted on
Isn’t there anymore?
How can you count on yourself,
When everything’s changing,
And you just want to stay the same?
Delaware
He stared out across the river
The water was an icy blue
Not much hope of surviving
Sky a pale despondent hue
They wore their colors proudly
Though their feet were barely shod
And on every pair of lips
Was a fervent prayer to God
To have another day to live
A merry Christmas night
To win the battle that lay ahead
And finish out all right
These young and old minutemen
Had families back at home
Looking out oe’r stormy waters
Loved one’s faces in the foam
The fight led to bloody tears, but
In the echoes of the battle drum
At the moment it became clear
The night of change had come
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